Test test~

She's feeling ->: accomplished

The very dreadful day has arrived.

Every single thing made me super emo today.

Esp when I left mummy's to head home.
It's empty.
It's all your fault.
You always talk and talk nonstop.
So hard to tolerate the silence.

I just want you home safe.

Please do.

She's feeling ->: worried

Too lazy to start a new blog!

As today, I think we're moving into our home (finally!) and that actually felt kinda weird.


Anyway I had to help out at the OG sales just last week. It's an annual event at Orchard Point so the crowd was pretty crazy. Check out the queue.



Some customers told me they had to queue for at least one hour!
And the queue to make payment was just as time consuming.






This was how I spent my last few weekends.



I ranted to bestie cos i was so tired. Like I was kinda hoping for some help but that never happened. Some ppl just sat one side and watched me packed and packed after a long day at work, and some who actually said would help went missing totally. Lucky Mr.Wong really acted like da man of the household this time round and did alot of stuff. Otherwise I'll just admit myself into IMH. =.=

Was really really touched when bestie and her whole family helped us shifted the cupboards and study table from mum's to our home. AND it was raining! When I went to Uncle with the umbrella he asked me to go back in dont catch the rain and he was used to it. SO FATHERLY. I'd always envy bestie for having a father like that. I hope one day, Mr.Wong can be that kinda father to our kids.

Then bestie made me very emo with a post on fb. I duno why but i started thinking abt papa. How he would have reacted to/ or be involved in my wedding and house-moving. Maybe (by his standards) he would put up a bo chup front. Then mummy would have to start living alone w bro. And how i would miss having snowy running abt in the house and sleeping right next to my bed every night. Sigh.


To end off on a lighter note, the gifts from the buds!!



THANK YOU!!

She's feeling ->: happy

Been pretty messed up for the longest period. And the breakdown came shortly before the big day.

I haven been happy for a very very, very long time. Too many issues to cope, with no solutions to offer. I either kept myself occupied 24/7, or I just totally spaced out into my own world. I gave my all to work, bcos dealing with work just sorta distracted me from the pain I felt. For the first time, I even avoided my friends - I just couldnt respond nor function to what they were saying. I knew it would do me good to speak to someone, but I just couldnt bring myself to. The nights even felt more comforting just sitting by the window and looking out into the dark loomy skies.

How do I know how bad I've turned into?

When even my mum could tell. Usually no matter how upset I am, I dont show any negativity in front of her lest she worries.

So when she finally asked (we dont usually talk too personal stuff ya) if I'm coping well, I know all the pretence I've tried to hold up failed completely. And of cos, all the reasons that have made me behaved the way I did sorta dissipated bit by bit with every passing day.

Suddenly, I'm starting to see things from a different way.

I dont know but I think I wanna be a happier person. I think I wanna let go of those bugging issues and just move on.

And so, with this entry, I'm wrapping up this journal I started in Sep 2006.

This time, I wanna begin my journey in my new phase of life, as a happy soul.

She's feeling ->: calm

As it turns out, I'm alrd bored before I'm a confirmed staff. :P Everything seems al too familiar that it didnt feel as though I've actually been away for 2 yrs. And suddenly I find myself missing prev comp alot.

Alot of HKG dramas lately (my canto still suck). Other than the korean KISS that releases only 2 epis every week. Such painful speed. And mostly I managed to make Mr.Wong watch with me. Esp the HKG dramas. I think he likes Moses Chen maybe? Cal intro this korean drama sth jiu wei hu thingy. After KISS ya!